Thursday, April 18, 2013

Last one

We've been waiting for this day for a year and 1/2 now. . . I went to bed last night filled with emotions I cannot describe. . . I thought I would be more excited and giddy but it wasn't that. . . I just can't describe it.  I heard a lie . . . "there will be something else they see and you will not be through with chemo". . . I chose to dismiss it. I had to fix my eyes back on what God revealed a while back.
I thanked God for healing this warrior! and for carrying us through!
 
As I walked to the van early this morning to begin our route to the hospital, I noticed something strange. . . it was still dark so it was hard to tell just what it was.
I soon realized. . .
 
 
I have some sneaky friends. . . HA!
One who God has chosen to reveal  pieces of my heart to. . . pieces that even I don't fully  understand.  
 
 Extremely thankful the MRI showed no growth and maybe even some slight decrease in one of the tumors.
So, we are finished with chemo but there is still much need for prayer.  The next 6 months to a year without chemo will show if the tumor cells are indeed dead.  Each day we will have to make a choice. . . . to pick up our armor . . .
and thank God for the journey . . . the journey already traveled and the one yet to come. 
 
 
The one behind the scene needs prayer too. . .Clothed in his sister's blanket. . . always concerned about how she is doing . . . he follows her around watching her every move. . . He has forever been changed by all that has rocked our world.  I see so often the cry for attention from this precious warrior prince.  Please pray for him too.
 
 
So much to be thankful for as we reflect back

 
Today has been a day filled with emotion: I feel torn. . . I want to jump up and down with joy and shout "No more chemo" but the reality is God has forever changed my heart for the sick kids. . .
Today another child's family is desperately hurting. . . wishing they didn't have to say goodbye so soon. . . The ache is sooo deep.  Please pray for Claire's family.
So many kids fighting for a cancer-free life. . . It's Hard and painful most of the time. . . . 
Praying often. . .
Never forgetting. . .
The ones who fought so hard and are now in heaven.
This beauty is missed so much! Please pray for Kate's family
 
 
 
We ARE excited about the good news . . . we ARE Thankful. . . we DO experience Joy. . .
But our hearts will NEVER be the same. They will ALWAYS have a piece that hurts from the pain and reality of childhood cancer. 
 
None of us could do this without the Prayer Warriors. You are SO needed! 
THANK YOU!!