Friday, June 29, 2012

Radical work

Without faith it is impossible to please God. Hebrews 11:6
The MRI showed no changes. . . although when I looked at it with the doctor myself. . . I asked where the one "mass" was in her spine b/c I couldn't find it.  We looked and searched and discovered that there is no definite answer to whether it's gone or still there.  When we do The next MRI I'll make sure to ask the radiologist to take extra focus on the one area and make sure he studies that spot too.
I so badly want to celebrate dissolved tumors. . . God's revealing of the miraculous.
But for now I will celebrate that He is Jehovah Rapha and He stopped the tumors from growing since the last MRI.  That is also worth celebrating!
Waiting to see more of His
 

I can choose to sit back and fear the unknown. . . . something that looks, feels, and appears scary but I won't.


So thankful for the ones that go before me. . . encouraging me to march on in faith.
It helps to face fears knowing God has placed others in my life that understand those fears. . . have walked the scary path. . . having nothing to cling to but God. . .


with tightened laces. . . we press on. . . knowing "All things are possible with God." Mark 10:27


"Glory to God who by His mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we would dare to ask, hope, or dream." Ephesians 3:20

I have to continue giving God all the pieces of my life, a daily struggle, so He can make something beautiful!

Monday, June 18, 2012

Gushing fountains

"Anyone who drinks the water I give will never thirst—not ever. The water I give will be an artesian spring within, gushing fountains of endless life."  John 4:14

Living Water. . .
Without it I would quickly wither. . . .













a dry, faded, shriveled up mess.
Artesian spring. . . I had opportunity to drink from such this past week while in Guatemala. It took educating me.  Drinking water from Central America is typically a no-no, but after describing the water system where I was staying, I knew I could trust it.  I drank and I saw that it was good. . . so good in fact that I had no problem staying hydrated. . . .  plenty of trips to the bana too. :)  (restroom)


















Not just concerned about the height of this ride . . . but will I remain in control of all bodily functions. wink. . . wink.

Continuing learning about  being a passenger.  Letting the Lord lead.  This doesn't happen as easily if I'm not completely filled with the spirit.  I often don't know where to use my energy. . .

Do I exhale, move, or both???

Just like how new things often feel uncomfortable for our princess warrior. . .

her eyes remain fixed on her Father who will Never let her go.  Her human body is so weary but her Father that continues to hold her will NOT grow tired or weak. . .

 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
Isaiah 40:28
  
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.  Isaiah 40:29














Even youths grow tired and weary,
   
  but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.  

They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.  Isaiah 40:31

New chemo is still sucking life out of our princess but as you can see. . . Jehovah Rapha continues to restore this warrior.  And we continue giving praise to the King!  For He is worthy. . .ALL the time!!!

Monday, June 4, 2012

critical

Critical. . . .
 
dictionary meaning. . .
crit·i·cal (krt-kl)
adj.
5.
a. Of or relating to a medical crisis: an illness at the critical stage.
b. Being or relating to a grave physical condition especially of a patient.
6. Indispensable; essential: a critical element of the plan; a second income that is critical to the family's well-being.
7. Being in or verging on a state of crisis or emergency:
 
 
this word showed up several times today. 
 
I quickly realized I was under attack. . . by the one who never wants me focusing on the praiseworthy, pure things of God, but the things this world has to offer . . .
doubt. . .
fear. . .
discouragement. . . .
 
How could this be?  Just minutes before. . .  I'm making bold declarations . . . expectant of the great.
 
And now the declining numbers are set before me and it's almost as if I forget who's in charge. . . my eyes get fixed on number 20 . . . fear sets in for the moment.  Worried about my leaving in a few days . . . .  over a thousand miles away from my family. . . . wondering how everything at home will play out in my absence.
 and just NOW as I type. . . heart's prompted. . . . I remember John 20. . .
The empty tomb. . . ALIVE!
Jesus appearing to his disciples. . . 21 Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”
 
He is calling me to go . . . I must choose obedience.
I must tell Satan to get behind me . . . . AND
Thank God for calling me. . .
What a privilege!!
 
This was modeled earlier in the week by a dear one . . . who we call Bubba

God told him to put into practice. . . take action. . . call the warriors


Lay hands on this princess. . .
 
come together as a body and make declarations. . . 
RESTORATION 
 
 
So I will rise and SHOUT
OUR GOD'S ALIVE!
 
I have shelter underneath his crown.
God's peace is such an amazing thing. I'll gladly be the passenger on this ride called life. I don't like being the driver. . . figuring out which road to turn down, when to stop, when to go. . . . I pray I allow Jesus to drive more often. He takes me places I never knew of.  I'm so glad he doesn't just drop me off and yell, "I'll be back to get you later."  He comes along with me. . . offers a hand when I''m scared. . .  to carry me when I'm tired. . . .  wipe my tears when I'm sad. . . I'm never alone.  Thank you God for Jesus!